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February 22

6 months old

My little guy is 6 months old. Everyone said it would go fast, I just didn't realize it would be THIS fast. Why does it go so quickly?! I want him to slow down and stay little bitty just a little bit longer.

He's been sitting up for about a month now. He prefers this to laying down now, which I thought was a bad thing considering he still doesn't roll! Turns out he may just skip rolling and go to scooting and then crawling. He can push himself up really good when he's on his belly and even scoot backwards if he's on a slick surface.

His two bottom teeth finally broke through and happy Preston is back!

He's finally accepting baby cereal again after a long strike. It's still really soupy though, otherwise he frowns and spits it out. His pediatrician said to get him started on solids soon though, and go straight to stage 2 if he takes it well. His weight isn't where she wants it. So I bought a bunch of different veggies and fruits and I'm going to make his baby food. It's cheaper and contains a lot more vitamins and minerals. And, I'm bored.

We're still breastfeeding and I'm really proud to be in the 36% that make it this far! I plan to go a year or when cow's milk can be introduced, hoping he makes it that far. Why switch to formula and pay for it when I make it for free?! Plus making and cleaning bottles, I'd rather do without.

Preston has beena really poor sleeper the past couple months (could have been from teething). Last week I purchased a swaddling blanket and it has been WONDERFUL. Last night he slept from 10:30pm to 10:00am this morning, waking only once at 5:00am and not even crying then. I fed him and he went back to sleep. I can't remember the last time I got that much sleep! Or Preston for that matter!

Preston weighed in at 16lbs, 4ozs, the 27th percentile, and he is 27 inches long, the 67th percentile. I was really expecting him to weigh more, and it made me sad that he was in the lower percentile. But I suppose if you look at genetics, he's coming from two thin people. I'm still supposed to push more food on him and get him eating solids. We'll see how he does.

He didn't like the doctor or nurse. He screamed bloody murder when he was out of my reach both times, he's has bad seperation anxiety right now. He really didn't like the shots, but was instantly ok when I picked him up. He started looking all over the place for the nurse after his shots and I picked him up, like "Ha Ha, you can't get me anymore!"

Overall, he's the sweetest, happy little guy. He's starting to snuggle on your shoulder when he's tired, and say "Ma." I don't think he associates it with me yet, but I love hearing it! He's just wonderful and I love him so much!

4 months old

Preston has his 4 month check up today. He would have went on Monday but the doctor called in sick. He has been given the ok to start rice cereal! We're going to be picking up a box soon to see how he does. She said if he's ready, most of it should go down, but if he's not then most will come back out. He checked out healthy! Still no ear infections (yay!, Justin had 4 sets of tubes in his ears when he was little), good eye sight from what we can tell, and still a small head. Oh well, it's growing and that's the important part. He's a healthy 14lbs 11oz (46%) and 25.5in long (66%). I thought he felt kinda hefty for his age and I often hear comments on how big he is, but he's a pretty average 4 month old! He received 5 shots and one oral again. He gagged on the oral, which made him upset and cry. The shots were no better. He gave it his all with the screaming! He grabbed my fingers so tight and squeezed harder with eat shot. With the last shot he was in such a frenzy that he stopped breathing in and turned bright read with little tears pouring out. It just breaks my heart! He calmed down pretty quickly once I picked him up though. He left out a few more cries when I put him down to dress him. As soon as we were in the car he was humming himself to sleep (It's adorable, but can get kinda loud when I'm trying to sleep also) and is still asleep now, an hour and half later! So it's back to the doc at 6 months.

2 months old

Preston is 2 months old today! My baby is getting so big. I was very worked up about his appointment today. If you saw Oprah a while ago, they were discussing the link between Autism and vaccines. I toyed with the idea a bit, but decided on his shots. Autism would be better than death. I was also just feeling sorry for Preston. I didn't want to see him in pain or associate me with the pain he was feeling. I made Justin come along... and hold him! He ended up getting 6 different vaccinations and Tylenol on top of that. Poor guy is all drugged up! He cried as soon as we got him undressed. He hates begin naked. When she wiped the area to be shot, he screamed. He hates cold too. As soon as Justin picked him up he stopped crying and fell asleep in daddy's arms. Traumatized!

He's weighing in at 12lbs 1 oz. The 61st percentile for his age.

He's 22 3/4 inches long. 48th percentile for his age.

She said his head was small, but I don't remember how much she said. I guess all that hair on there makes me think it's bigger!

He's doing really well though. He wasn't fussy for the couple hours he's been awake so far and I even got some cute pictures. Me? Take pictures? Never. As long as he doesn't end up crying in pain in an hour, he's off the Tylenol. I'll post some 2 month pictures soon!

6 week check up

Preston had his 6 week check up today! He's now 21.5 inches long (at 2 weeks they told me 21 3/4...hmm... did he shrink?) putting him in the 50% for his age and weighs 10.14 pounds which put him at 75-90%. He's filling out quite nicely. They said breastfed babies gain weight quicker, but jeez... Some of him 0-3 months clothes are getting snug. He's also hit all his basic milestones and a few advanced ones. He can lift his head, follow objects (loves his mobile!), makes eye contact, and now does a social smile--so cute and melts my heart every single time! I just love, love, love him!

I already had my 4 week check up and everything checked out great. So now it's back to exercising... HA! Who has time for that anyway?

My Pregnany Facts 38 weeks

I'm 38 weeks and 3 days pregnant. I've been pregnant for 267 days. I have 12 days left until my due date. I am 95% of the way there! I'm dilated to 1.5cm and effaced 50% since 35 weeks. I've gained 26 pounds. I have no stretch marks... on my belly. I've had all my baby clothes washed since June 1st. I had the baby's room painted a week after we moved into our new house. The day of my baby shower, I had Justin help assemble and open every single item, including the high chair that he won't use until he's eating foods. I had my car seat professionally installed by our local fire department as well as safety checks done on it almost 2 weeks ago. I sleep an average of 5 hours a night because I have either A) Braxton Hicks contractions that are doing nothing to my body but annoying me or B) I have to pee at least once an hour. I have walked every single day since I was 36 weeks pregnant and I am now exhausted and sore, with no baby. I have had both the baby bag and my hospital bag packed and ready for 2 weeks now. I have cleaned my house from top to bottom at least 3 times now, hoping that tomorrow might be the day I deliver. I can't bend over to tie my shoes--I love my flip flops. Every time I get up from sitting, I have to limp because of a kink in my lower back. I can't sit in a recliner because the baby gets tucked up under ribs and I can't breathe. I haven't dropped. I've been carrying low since the very beginning. I get feet in my ribs every hour. Preston weighs about 7 pounds and 4 ounces. If I go another two weeks, I fear I may die during delivery, or worse, have a c-section. I'm terrified of the big needle they jam into your spine to shut you up. I have the most beautiful baby ever, at least in sonograms! I am ready to have this baby!

Preston's Birth

I know, I'm over 6 month late posting this. I've had computer compatibility problems. I'm using Justin's laptop for now while I have Preston upstairs. So here's his birth...
 

Preston’s Birth Story

On August 3rd, I woke up at 1:30am to what I thought was myself peeing. I got up, went to the bathroom and it stopped as usual. I laid back down and 15 minutes later it happened again. Back to the restroom and it stopped. So I put a pad on and laid back down. I knew my bladder was empty and half an hour later, it started seeping out again. I got up and got online to read about water breaking and by then the pad had filled. I didn't expect him to come 10 days early! I jumped in the shower and tried to relax. I was so excited though! Today was the day! I dried my hair and got dressed.

I called the hospital and let them know I was coming in. I wasn't having any contractions yet, just the Braxton Hicks, which made my water come out even quicker. I woke Justin up at 3:45am and told hi it was time. Half awake, he smiled and said, "really?" Yes! By the time we were at the hospital, I swear my stomach had deflated! When Preston would move around in there, it hurt really bad and you could see him so much better than when there was more fluid!

When I arrived, I was wheeled to the delivery floor to be checked. The strip came back positive for amniotic fluid adn I was told to strip down and put a gown on because there was no going home now!

The nurse called the doctor and he immediately said to start me on Pitocin. My body hadn't even had a chance to start working on it's own! I've heard a lot of painful stories that included Pitocin, so I denied it and asked for more time to progress on my own. Of course, since my water broke, I was on a timeline. I did have to have an IV for fluids though, which is fine with me. I didn't really come into this with a birth plan or anything. I wanted to just play it by ear since I really didn't know what to expect and in the end, I want what is best for baby.

I started at the hospital at 1.5cm and 50% effaced at 4:30am. By 7:00 I had to make at least one sign of progression. I could feel my contractions to really begin, although they were still not very painful, just a light menstrual crampy feeling, and they weren't very regular. By 7:00, I made it to 2-3cm and 60%. Yay! The nurse kept reminding me though that I had to keep progressing or they'd start Pitocin by 1:00pm. So I got up and walked around to try and get contractions going. I think this made them slow down! I barely felt them. So I went back to the room and tried breast pumping. This brought on a lot stronger contractions, but nothing that would continue on it's own. They didn't want to check me until 12:00 to reduce the risk of infection since my water broke so I had no idea if I was getting anywhere. I tried sitting on the birthing ball to open my pelvis and bring the baby down. This really helped after my contractions started getting stronger because I had a lot of back pain with them and I could lean over the bed through them. Finally the doctor called and wanted to see if I was getting anywhere. I was 4cm and 70%. Ugh! This was such a slow process! The nurse kept telling me that the pitocin would speed up my labor, but I knew it would be way more intense and I'd want the epidural right away. I wasn't against one, I just had a major fear of the needle going into my spine! Around 5:00pm I had finally made it to 6cm and 80% The nurse suggested getting in the birthing tub to help with the pain since I was feeling pretty crappy, but still able to tolerate the pain.

The water felt great! It was also nice to get away from everyone that had come for the birth. It was just weird having so many people stand there and watch me labor. I was about to give in to the epidural and get back in bed, but the nurse wanted to check me one last time. I was at 8cm and 90%. I was so close, I knew I could do this without meds. At 7:00, I was almost 10cm and 100%. My doctor finally showed up (I interrupted her workout at the gym and she kept asking the nurse for 20 more minutes! I was going to push when I was ready, regardless!) Just as she got there, I felt the urge to push, and the contractions were so much stronger. So in the water, I pushed away!

The first push felt like his head had to be filling my entire canal! But, no. He was right there, but he wasn't going to come out that easy! Each contraction and push felt like I was getting no where. I was beginning to think he wasn't going to come out. My midwife was great though! I did things on y own terms. After a really good push, she kept saying "push", but I didn't want to anymore and she was fine with that. The next contraction though, that was it! I didn't want to do this anymore, so I gave it my all and pressed down on my stomach, yelling. After "only" 15 minutes of pushing, he was out! It was by far the most intense, scary, exciting, and satisfying thing I have ever done! She pulled him above water and placed him on my lap. As soon as he cried, I started bawling with him, as well as Justin. Oh my goodness! I just gave birth! Naturally! In water! And I have a baby boy!  

August 3rd, 7:25pm. 7 pounds, 3 ounces, 19 inches long. Full head of dark hair!

We had a tough start with breast-feeding, but after 24 hours, he stayed awake long enough to actually latch on. It's a lot more painful than I thought it would be. I'm hoping that pain goes away when the milk comes in!

He looks nothing like what I had imagined! I thought he'd be daddy's replica, but he looks like me as a baby!

 
 
June 23

Happy Birthday to Me!

Wow, over a month since I've updated. So not like me! In all fairness, I've tried a couple times, but this website was "experiencing difficulties." Okay, so where do I start? Baby Preston!

I've been doing my 2 week appointments for a while now. Can you believe that in another 2 weeks I'll be going once a week!? I'll be 33 weeks tomorrow. I got the results from all my tests back. I'm not anemic. I do not have gestational diabetes. My urine is checking out good for no sugar or protein. My blood pressure is a little low still. They say it has to do with all my extra fluids and blood my heart is trying to pump. They ask if I get dizzy a lot, but I only have once and nearly passed out just from standing. That was back at 20 weeks though. My weight gain is right on target now as well as the baby's measurements! I'm running out of room for Preston to romp around in there. His kicks are strong and painful. He knows right where my ribcage is. Lately I've been experiencing what feels like him pinching or scratching my bladder and it HURTS! I'm not sure what's really going on, but I wish he'd stop. I don't sleep very well anymore. I can't lie on my back and I want to SO badly. I toss from side to side all night. Every time I move, I wake the baby and he wiggles forever in there trying to get comfortable again. Then my legs fall asleep from all the extra centralized weight. Did I mention that I'm constantly hot when I try to sleep? Flip flop all night until 5:30 and then the sun is up and shining through our windows because we don't have any trees! Once the sun is up, I feel like there's no point in trying to sleep anymore. Yep, only 7 weeks to go... I'm ready for this to be over already. Thank God it's summer because putting shoes on is getting really hard to do. I love my flip flops :)

Aside from complaining about the baby, I "finished" his nursery! It's so cute! Theresa and Jack bought his bedding (a cute jungle theme from Target) as his housewarming gift when we moved into our new place. I brought a bunch of paint samples home and matched up a beautiful green color with the bedding. It's called "brush meadow." It looks great on the walls. My latest project for the nursery was buying  wooden letters from Hobby Lobby that spell his name. I then painted each letter a different animal that matched his bedding. They turned out great! It's one of the only art projects I've done in a while and it felt so good to actually do something again. I also put together a slideshow for our family reunion today and I count that as art. I love making stuff!

Also, we had Preston's 4D ultrasound done last week! Unfortunately, I was one of the lucky few that have a stubborn baby that wouldn't cooperate. He's shy like his daddy and me as a baby. We couldn't get a good clear shot of his face even once. They reccommend the ultrasound for 28 weeks but she never said why. I went at 31 weeks. It's because at 31 weeks your fluids start to decrease and the baby starts to take up more of the room. They need the fluid arund the baby to get a good clear picture. From what we could see, he has Justin's full lips, my chubby cheeks, and a cute little chin that could be from either of us. Justin and I look surprisingly similar as far as face shape. She couldn't tell us what color hair he would likely have, but she did say he had hair! Yay! No bald baby for us! Regardless of the outcome, Preston will look totally different from the pictures when he gets here. I know he'll be cute though. Ya just can't help it when it's in our genes! 

So yes, we moved into our new townhouse!  I absolutely love it!  3 bedroom, 2.5 bath, eat in kitchen, living room, and half finished basement. We've already filled up all the rooms. We're still looking at finding more storage space and shelves. I had no idea we had so much stuff. Everything is pretty much put away besides all my art stuff. There's just no where to put it! I'm still trying to figure out a good set up to have all my art stuff out so I'm more inclined to use it and create.When it's stored in a bunch of tackle boxes and rubbermaid containers it seems like more of a hassle than fun. So the only downside to our new place would be all the construction going on around us. When we moved in we were told they were building a grocery store and 14 room theater. What we didn't realize was that a major road would be put in just feet from our back door. Over the last weekend they put up the sides of the road. I think they're just waiting for the water to evaporate some so they can lay concrete now. Oh, and since it's a newer house, there isn't any mature trees, so the sun shines right in our bedroom even with the blinds down! I think staying at home all day is starting to get to me though. I miss human interaction and my mom's house. Maybe it's just because of where I grew up, but it just feels so much different from Normal. The lighting, the sounds, the smells, the people... I came home and took Alyssa on a walk and didn't have a single car pass me. I can't leave my doorstep without having a car pass no matter what ime of day. Oh well. The differences between the country and the city.

Today is my 24th birthday! Oh my gosh, I'm so old now! I'm the same age as my mom when she started having kids and the same age as Theresa when she was done having kids. How bizzare. I got my first present yesterday in the mail. Brandy sent me a waffle maker!! I was so excited! I've been eyeing a waffle maker for over a year and I always have Brandy make me waffles. She couldn't have picked a better gift!

Well it's finally 8:00am, on a Saturday, so I can turn on the TV without feeling too guilty if I wake someone. Been up since 5:00am today :) Thanks Preston!


May 15

I've been shot!

Four times in one day! Yesterday I went back to the doctor for a check-up. I'm just over 27 weeks now and that means it's time for my Rhogam and Glucose test. I just wasn't expecting it to happen all at once.

My appointment was at 10:45 and I ended up waiting for an hour again just to see my doctor for 5 minutes. I guess I shouldn't complain, at least I have a doc now! This time I had the other resident doc so that I meet both of them since both won't be at the hospital when I go into labor. She too was very nice. I told her abou tmy contractions and she said that as long as I don't have more thatn 6 in an hour, I'm ok. Since I'm "so little" I probably just feel them more than other women. When I get persistent contraction I am to drink 2-3 large glasses of water and lie down. Hm. Everyone is different, but she seemed a lot less concerned than the other doc. Preston is measuring right on target at 27.5cm for my uterus hieght. His heartbeat was a bit quicker this time at 160. She thinks he must have been active, and sure enough he was. It was getting to be lunch time! She also ordered my shot and glucose and told me to go to the hospital. Normally they have you fast before doing the glucose test, but I only had a bowl of cereal that morning and I was straving already so I went on over to avoid another trip.

I registered at the front desk and they gave me an arm bracelet with my name on it. I went over to the lab and waited my turn. Although I love donating my blood, lately I've had bad experiences with them drawing my blood so I was a bit nervous. I just had to tell myself that this is a different hopital, and different country! Too bad it was the same old story...

The nurse was young and super nice which made me feel comfortable. I looked away as she pinched my vein down to insert the needle. It was just a little prick and didn't hurt but my arm was starting to go numb from being tied so tightly. She commented that my blood was flowing very slowly, so I continued to grasp the plastic tube in my hand to make my blood pump quicker. Then she says to the other nurse in the room, "Her vein is already bubbling!" I didn't know what that meant, but the other nurse dropped what she was doing to come see. I was beginning to panic and still didn't want to look. I was tensing up and squeezing my hand tight. "Oh my God!" What? Don't say that! I'm starting to think I'm going to die soon. "Release your grip!" They undid the band from my arm and fresh blood brought my arm back to life. I looked down to see what was going on. "These stupid butterfly clips... we've been trying to find a new company..." Faulty equipment, great. My blood had been gushing out on to the table instead of the tube and I now had a pool of blood under my arm. The nurse's both apologized, but they still had to get my blood. So she went for my left arm, even smaller and harder to hit veins. She let me know ahead of time that she had to take it from a vein that would cause me a little pain later. She's right too, it still hurts today. They sent me out to the lobby with a bottle of an orange soda-like drink that had to taken in 5 minutes. Then I had to sit around for an hour so they could see if my pancreas was able to handle the sugar. If it can't, the extra sugar goes to the baby and causes a big baby, meaning I have gestational diabetes. I was so hungry at that point and I knew that sugar would only cause me a stomach ache. For the sake of science, I did it, and then suffered the rest of the afternoon on the toilet. Sugar and grease, 2 things my body does not like on an empty stomach!

The hour wait took forever. I wandered through the gift shop, walked around outside, and called a couple people. I finally went back to the lab and they uncovered my left arm to draw blood again. She almost took it from the same vein, but then changed her mind right before sticking me and said she'd give it a break. This time it went smoothly and quickly. My poor arms. All 3 spots are bruised today, especially the right arm. She sent me up to the 4th floor to get my shot. I tried talking my doctor into letting me go without one since I know we're both negative blood types, but she said Justin would have to come in and they'd test his blood themselves. Booger. So off I go...

When I got there, they sent me to a sugical room and started freaking out again. What's the big deal with this shot? Why does it take so long to prepare? They had to ask me several questions to get the right amount for me, as well as take my blood pressure again and temperature. Was I going to have to stay and be monitored? After 10 minutes, she came back with the shot and a booklet on the shot for me to read. This thing comes with a book!? She then tells me to lean over the bed and pull my pants down. Oh dear, and it was in the butt! I instantly tightened up when she stuck me and it started tingling. All done. They let me go. It hurt walking every time my cheek tensed up.When I got home I opened the book. I was so grossed out when I found out that this shot was made from human blood! No wonder it comes with a book and ID number... when they find out it was infected blood, they'll give me a call... ick. I know I feel good when I give blood, but I don't want somoene else's blood. All I think is germs.... yeah, I'm wierd.

I'm now in my 3d trimester and scheduled to see the doc every 2 weeks now! We're getting closer and closer and I'm starting to get nervous about labor and delivery. It seemed to far away and when I look at a clandar and all the stuffI have to do, this time is going to fly. Preston will be here in 3 months!!
May 03

Stressed!

These past couple weeks have been so stressful! I haven't been sleeping well, and I've worrying about everything that's going on.

After a week of not hearing from my interview, I applied to a couple ho-hum jobs just for some type of income. I applied at a flower shop as a cashier only to find that when I walked in, I was interviewed on the spot with the flower arrangment manager for an assistant position. I have a background in art, so I thought, why not? I was floored when she says, "Well, do you want to make me something?" Uhh... sure. She pointed to all the stuff and said, "There ya go." I told her I had no experience in this and yet she expected me to whip up this glorious bouquet of flowers. So I'm standing there thinking to myself... Do I fill the vase with water first? How much do I fill it? What kind of flowers do I use? What greenery do I use? Do I cute the stuff before I put it in the vase? How tall should they be? The lady turns to do her own thing and leaves me hanging. I can match up a pretty color combo for you, but come on, I don't know what I'm doing! I put together what looks like a blob of flowers. She thanks me for making it for her and then I kindly say bye and can't help but smile in disbelief that his actually just happened. AfterI get to my car I break out in laughter thinking about it. I so don't think this is the job for me...

The other job I applyied for is an office assistant at a chiropratic office. They're looking for a warm friendly person--that's me! I was called the next day for an interview. So today I interview there with a woman that doesn't usually do the interviewing. She was a very kind woman, but I only had enough words for yes and no for her questions, which doesn't give a good picture of my true personailty. So I just smiled my way through, hoping to seem like I could fit the description. The pay is much lower and benefits start after 6 months. However, I don't see myself stressing out at this job. It's 40 hours a week, 10 hours a day. I don't have to stand a lot. It has it's pros, but also it's cons. I don't see myself staying there forever, which they're looking for long term employment. Yes, it's a job, but it doesn't help my career and I'd hate to see my degree go down the drain.

Which brings me to my next situation. I finally hear from the my first interview after I e-mailed them asking if they'd made a desicion. They still haven't decided and have a few problems with me. 1. I asked for too much money. I think if they know what they want to pay, why in the world would they ask for a salary!? Of course I'm going to ask for lots of money. I don't want to underestimate what they may pay. 2. They felt that I had a desire to move up. I asked if there was opportuiny to advance, but it isn't really essential for me. Right now I need a job and experience. Don't most people want to advance though? I don't understand what kind of perosn he's looking for... Someone without ambition? Yet I still want the job. So I e-mailed him and tried to give myself one last cry for the job. I probably just made myself look pathetic, but if it's meant to be, it'll be, and at least I tried.

More stress: We've been looking for a house, which doubles the pressure and anxiety for me to find a job. There's more to my story, but I have to run! Sorry!

Ok, ok... Find a house. We've looked at probably around 40-50 homes in the Bloomington/Normal area over the past couple weeks. We had no problem getting approved as we both have exceptionally high credit for our age. Our only problem was finding a descent house in our price range. I couldn't believe some of the dumps we looked at for $120,000!!  Justin commented that he wouldn't even let the dog in some of those places. Sloping floors, cracked walls, broken windows, lead painted, holes in the floors, ceilings, walls, uneven floors, dirty carpet, smelly rooms (cat, B.O., smoke, rotten food). It was starting to feel like we'd never find a descent home and that we should just settle for O.k... but for the amount of money we're spending it should have been superb! That's the difference between the city and a small country town though. We put a bid in on a house that was a little out of our price range. It was brand new and not even finished yet. It was in a neighboring town. Someone else put in abid the same night and we had to put all our eggs in one basket. Highest bidder wins. I knew then that we'd lose the house and he was probably going to make even more money than he asked for. We couldn't afford it. So we put a big in on a cute bi-level house next to Kasi and Erics on a busy road. It was lovely, but still out of our price range. They wouldn't budge much on their price, so we walked. Our last resort was to bid on a Zero-lot line house. It's pretty much a condo. It has a lot of the feaures we were looking for minus a garage, fenced yard, and attached neighbors. There's a jogging trail right next to these houses, as well as a park. Although we wouldn't have a yard for Max or the babe, we could still take them down the road to play, or take them on the paved trail for a walk.  It was 3 bedroom, 2 and half bath, partially finished basement, big kitchen and living room, all redone. The place was only built in 2001, so nothing is really that old in it anyway. Jack and Theres managed to come and look at places with us to help us decide. When we met with the realtor, she informed us that 2 of the condos we were going to see were alreay pending, and the particular condo we were going to big on SOLD! I couldn't believe it. It was only on the market for 10 days and at our first walk through, the painters were still right outside! I was heartbroken. She did tell us that another one would be openeing up soon though, but they hadn't started the renovations yet. I wanted this one because it was on the end, but guess what--so is the other one! It's supposed to have exactly what this one has, plus a washer and dryer because we asked for it!

The first 2 houses we looked at we pretty much junk. I'm not sure I even felt safe in them, they might fall apart! For the money, everyone agreed that it was crazy! When we showed them the condo though, everyone fell in love! It outweighs having a garage and yard by far. We stopped looking at places and decided to put in a bid. Jack and Theresa left and we waited to hear from the realtor. She said we should probably know by that night. An hour later we got the call. It's ours! We'll get the keys on May 25th! We're SO excited about our first home/condo! Now that we found a place to live, I'm feeling the anxiousness to get a job so we can pay for it. I feel like I can't settle my mind about everything still. The worrier in me :)

The baby has also been a complete run around. As you know, we don't have insurance so I had to meet with the health department several times. When I finally got that taken care of, they assigned me a doctor at Brommen, supposedly one of the best! I couldn't wait for my doctor's appointment to make sure everything was ok with Preston. I feel him kickly constantly, but it's always reassuring to hear it from the doctor.

At my first doctor appointment, the waiting room was packed. Just what I wanted to see. I knew it was a bigger city, but wow! I waited a good hour before seeing anyone. I did the urine sample, and it came back good. They weighed me, my favorite part, and I've gained almost 20 pounds. I was one tenth of an ounce away! I think every pound I gain, is an ounce for Preston :) They couldn't really do too much that day because they didn't have my previous medical records. I signed a release for them and talked with my doctor. I told her about the contractions I have been feeling that are painless. She looked a bit alarmed. I thought they were normal Braxton Hicks. I'm having them too much though so they took a cervical culture to determine if I'd go into preterm labor. If it came back postive, I'd have the baby in 2 weeks, negative is good and if the contractions haven't stopped, I'll get another test in 2 weeks. I was kinda frazzled after that. She told me I need to relax as much as possible and drink lots of water. I told her I was under a lot of stress right now and she said that can trigger it too. I don't even have a job right now! what's it going to be like if I find one? They decided to hook me up to a fetal monitor to see if I had any contractions and how the baby responds to them. They set me up in a big comfy chair and turned on the TV. They strapped me up and gave me a clicker to push every time I felt the baby move. It was about lunch time and Preston lets me know when he's hungry because he squirms and kicks. I was pushing that button every couple of seconds. I think the straps were too tight and he didn't like them. I stayed hooked up about 20 minuntes and had no contractions. She said the baby's heartrate was good and she wasn't too worried about him, but wanted to schedule a sonogram ASAP. I had another apponitment for the next morning there.

At the sonogram, the office was much quieter. There is hope that it won't be as swamped everyday! The sonographer was nice, as all the nurses and doctos are there. (Did I mention they're all gorgeous too?!) She did the basic measurments of Preston and said he was measuring a couple days ahead, as usual. His weight is about 1.5 pounds which is the average for a baby at this week. His heartrate was steady at 143. We also got new pictures! There's a new one of his profile and then kind of a s3 quarter view of his face. If it were stright on, he'd look like a creepy skeleton. He's gaining weight in his little cheeks. Everyone keeps saying that his profile looks just like Justin. He's doing good though, so less worries there. I am so meet Preston already! But there is clearly a lot that needs to be taken care of before he gets here, so it's best that he waits until closer to his due date! None of this preterm labor stuff for me please!

I go back in 2 weeks for another regular check-up, and then again for my glucose test to check for gestational diabetes. Yum...I get to starve myself before coming in and then drink a sugary liquid and wait for an hour for them to draw blood and check the levels of sugar in my blood. If it's postive, I got back for more tests. Then I have to come again for the Rhogam shot because I have a negative blood type. If my baby is postive, my body will make anitbodies to try and fight him off. I'm not worried though because me and Justin are both negative blood types. They do it anyway "just in case."

We also heard back from one of our claims. We're recieving one of them back in full and the other is "being investigated." So there is a little good news in there. Transitioning from military life with a baby on the way is so much harder than I ever expected. Though I don't reccommend it, I wouldn't change anything. God knows what he's doing and I just have to trust him!
April 23

Job Interview

Ok, so after much anticipation, I tried to clam myself as I walked to the store from my carwith my unmistakable basketball belly. It's just a job, just a job. Ha! Whatever eases my mind anyway. Just a job that could potentially support my husband and child. I proofed my portfolio a few times before even leaving the house. I had to have it perfectly organized and sifted through to reflect my best pieces of work. I kept reading online  that 10-15 examples was plenty to show at an interview, but I just couldn't part with all my pieces. I ended up with more like 25 pieces including the business packages mounted on foam core.
 
I walked into the store to a pleasant woman in her forties. I intorduced myself ans he took me next door to Blimpie's and directed me to the back of the restuarant where a man sat in the dim light. It felt like I was in a strange book set apart from my world. All of this felt so unfamiliar--the lighting, the smell, my clothes, my make-up, and of course the man in the corner. As I approached him witha  smile, I sucked in my belly trying to hide little Preston. He shook my hand and introduced himself as I did. I felt a bit more comforatble as he joked with me that he was talking with his coworker rather than reading over my resume like he'd planned to during lunch. I sat across from them and felt strangely comfortable looking at this man. His hair and facial expressions reminded me of a previous boss whom I got along great with. Hmm, is this a sign? I felt like I answered the questions pretty good in the beginning. It was basic factual answers. Then towards the middle he starts in with the questions that for some reason make me feel brain dead when asked. "How would you describe your previous employer?" What do I say? I tell him he was crazy! What was I thinking?! I loved my last boss! I could feel my face burning up with redness as I tried to recover from my foolish answer, but then the words just got stuck somewhere between speaking and thinking. Doh! Personality flaw. I don't do well at "public"  speaking or being on the spot. I just laughed it off and prayed for a smoother question and answer to follow. "How would your last boss describe your work?" I so had this one nailed in my practice questions. I say "punctual." What the heck!? That's me, not my work! Recover... "clean." He says, "As in not dirty?" I had to laugh at myself again as I realized then he wasn't an artist or designer. He was a mangaer over a store and had no clue as to what I meant by clean. Showing him my work later he said he then understoof what I meant by clean. I took it as a compliment and smiled as I told him I was a bit of a perfectionist. I sure hope that's an important quality he's looking for!
 
He then goes on to talk about the duties. I would be the designer and production team. Just me. I am the team.  While it would be nice to not have others to have to compare myself to, I'd also like a helping hand. How am I supposed to learn? With a 2 week straight training in Dallas, Texas of course! I think it counds fun! I think I could enjoy this position in the tight knit store. There are 5 employees. The bad? No benefits until after a year and then I get a 401K-like IRA. No health insurance. The good? Paid holidays and a salary income! Both men seemed like nice people and I could see myself working for and with them.
 
I left with no real sense as to whether I would get the job or not. They still had a couple more interviews and I feel like my salary erequirements were a bit too high for them after I researched their company online. But I have to remind myself that I shouldn't sell myself short. I did afterall go to college for this and that counts for something. It's just a job and as of a few weeks ago I was completely content with being a stay at home mom when Preston arrives. We'll see though :)
 

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